2004-12-13 - 2:04 a.m.

just another brick in the wall

It so sucks being the reliable one. The one that people can not worry about offending because you never take offense and have a hissy fit.

Do they realize that I don't have a hissy fit because I'm too hurt by having been let down and abandoned?

Or do they just not care?

As soon as I let someone begin to become a friend again... BAM.

Thanks for the brick.

Is it just human nature that when someone does you a favor, you start to take advantage?

Is it just human nature that eventually everyone you love or even just trust is going to hurt you?

Or am I dealing with the completely wrong set of humans?

There's this girl I see at shows sometimes. She travels to see the same band I do. I never see her with a friend. The other fans try to include her the way you'd try to include anyone on the edges of a crowd, but she never speaks to any of us unless she has to. She avoids eye contact with us. It doesn't appear to be shyness, and it doesn't appear to be conceit. Just definite desire not to communicate or become acquainted with anyone.

I'm beginning to see her point.

my mood -

the mood of the whole world wide bleepin' web -